To Gang Bang or Not To Gang Bang….

We got invited to a party tonight where it’s 4 guys for every girl. 16 couples, 15 girls and about 50 guys. If it wasn’t for the painters arriving to do renovations on the fun park for the next week, I’d be able to go (ie: period arrived damn it).

I’ve never been to a party of that magnitude before. Our toyboy had a birthday party with 6 couples and 2 singles guys including himself, which was awesome! There was sex going on in every bedroom and lounge area and I have to say, turning around to see Mr Wonderful doing one of the wives doggy style in the room behind me was a huge turn on! Here is me from the sideline –> “go babe!” lol!

Anyway, I digress… which is easy to do when that night was full of wild passion with multiple people for 10 hours!!! Ok ok, I’ll stop bragging So tonight would have been massive in comparison and also open to people with all sexual orientations which is even more of a turn on for me…

But I have to admit to a small part of me questioning actually doing it. The idea of the night is to actively participate in a gang bang and while the idea of it is a bit of a turn on, I was a little nervous and anxious. I still occasionally battle with some old traditional relationship programming, one thought was “would that make me more of a slut than a sexual explorer?” because “slut” has such negative connotations for many.

I wondered if I shared that I participated if it would make a difference to how people viewed me. Being a people pleaser to some degree, I worry about upsetting people and as inappropriate as I can be sometimes, it bugs me when I step over the line and piss people off (so I apologise now if the topic does that for you but then the title really did give it away lol)…

There is a part of me that says go for it and share it so other people, women specifically, can feel ok about participating