I have to be honest and say that I was never really interested in exploring the kink side of the playground but at the last Saints and Sinners Ball, I got up on a stage and went to town on my bestie’s ass with a cat-of-nine-tails! Not a real one but after a few lashes and her saying I needed to go harder, I wish I had a real one! I knew my bestie had discovered a liking for being spanked and I think she challenged that night me saying I’d never spank her… Well hello! Red flag – bull! Next thing I knew I was putting some serious effort into making it hurt more because she was asking for it! No, really, she was actually asking for it!
Was I discovering the Dom in me? Was I really enjoying letting loose and inflicting some pain on my bestie? Hell yeah!!! Who knew I had that in me? I knew I didn’t like being told what to do so could never be a sub (I don’t think) but I do love it when my hubby takes control of me, pinning me up against the wall and going passionate ninja on me, so maybe I would!
And then I met someone else who has rocked my world in ways I can’t even describe in words… What started out as an off handed comment about him wearing a collar and a leash, turned into me calling him “Pet” and him calling me “Mistress”. All of a sudden I want to put him in a harness, put a collar on him, make him wear PVC or leather boxer briefs and lead him around on that leash! I am falling in love with the idea of being more dominant and punishing him for being a bad boy (in ways I think we’ll both enjoy though lol!)
Actually, that fantasy extended to my bestie also being on a collar and leash and leading my “pets” through Saints and Sinners, kissing and playing with them when I choose to, or make them watch as I kiss some other random (or playmate) I meet!
Ultimately I really don’t know what I will enjoy or not enjoy but for the first time in my life I’m really willing to walk down the path and open the various doors to see what’s on the other side. And I think I may have found my partners in crime for this journey when it comes to me playing the Dom role… And since I trust my Mr Wonderful to the nth degree, I think I may explore a sub type role with him only…
I have got myself the Ultimate Guide to Kink by Tristan Taormino and I’m looking forward to reading it. I may just devour it like I would devour “Pet” if he were here (we’ve been driving each other wilder than an adolescent boy let loose in the Playboy Mansion with naked Playboy Bunnies begging to be taken – yeah THAT wild!)
Just talking about it has me ready to take the bull by the horn and ride it all night long! Yes, I did say “horn” and not “horns”, of course I’m not thinking of an actual bull, dah!
Mr Wonderful is really enjoying the effect it’s having on me too. I’ve been a bit dormant in the sexual energy department but whatever I’ve unlocked in myself has flooded me with sexual energy ALLLLL week long! (Thank you Pet!)
So while we have a few more conversations about safe words, how we are going to communicate what’s ok and what’s not, and whatever boundaries we know we have from the outset, we are both looking forward to expanding what we know and discovering what else we like! Dorothy, I don’t think we’re in Kansas anymore (as evidenced by the amount of leather, collars and whips laying around!) I’m liking the new playground… Just call me “Mistress”!
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