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I Think I’m Becoming More Bi

What a night! Actually, what a weekend!! 2 nights in a row of play time which is unusual, but a weekend double header has been lots of fun! Out of all that though, the highlight for me was the last few hours of this morning when I was astounded by my own desire to play with girls. That isn’t typical for me. I do like kissing girls (a lot!) and only on a rare occasion have I felt something more for a particular girl, but that feeling seems to be happening on a more regular basis.

Last night we had a group of people over, which included some new people we’d not played with before and another girl that I’ve enjoyed playing with in the past. Two significant things happened.

Significant event number 1 was with a girl we’ve played with before… she is probably the only girl where it’s been a mutual “I would so just like to play with you” kind of feeling. I haven’t seen her in a while but was looking forward to catching up last night. I recently realised that I actually miss her, which is a weird feeling for me to begin with but last night it was something different again.

When she was leaving, I found myself wanting to ask her out on a date or something… just the 2 of us… alone… and the thought of doing that gives me good tingly sensations in all the right places. I never thought I’d feel like this about a girl! She has a great boyfriend though; he’s funny, good looking and full of energy, but when she’s around I can’t help but want to just play with her. I think that’s because there is so much new stuff that I want to explore and experience with her, it’s nothing to do with him, he’s awesome. If I could get that chance, away from other people including my own Mr Wonderful, then maybe I wouldn’t be as focused on her when we’re all together.

Who knows, this whole girl thing is so totally new for me so it might happen that way, and it might not… but it doesn’t end there.

[protected]Significant event number 2. We were playing with another couple and the whole girl play thing was something new for her. She seemed to take to it pretty quickly, all the girls were kissing each other most of the night so I think that helped make her comfortable. When it was just the 4 of us alone, I found myself just wanting to play with her, and the more we kissed and caressed, the more turned on I was getting. I don’t normally feel like that and there I was with that real desire to do all sorts of girl things with her. I just wanted to feel her soft, silky skin on mine, our breasts together, to run my hands over her body, to pull her in closer and do things that turned her on… just writing about it is turning me on (still surprising!). It surprised the hell out of me even more when she managed to get me to orgasm <– that has never happened before with a girl!

I woke up this morning and those were the two things that really stood out in my mind. I honestly loved it and I can’t wait to do more with either of them. Even more interesting was the thought in my head asking whether or not I could be in a relationship with a girl, which for me has always been “I’ll never be that bi because I don’t feel like that about girls”… I think I’m changing… If I met a single girl where I connected like I have with these 2, it’s a definite possibility and with our relationship as it stands, it wouldn’t be too off the mark to think that in the future I could have a girlfriend, and my hubby (Mr Wonderful) could have a boyfriend.

Oh god, that would be awesome! And totally HOT!


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